It’s 4am and the insomnia has me for yet other night. There’s so many things left to do, and I’ve already exhausted the given 24 hours in this day. With the never ending list of things to do, things to learn, coupled with a family illness and other extreme family dysfunctions, the stress level is at an all-time high. Yesterday, I read a post on 500 startups blog titled “Building a startup is still hard.” -Yea, no shit sherlock. I don’t think anyone thinks its easy, but there is a point where the glamour of starting up starts to lose its sparkle and fast. That point is about now.

My late night thoughts are now louder than ever. Obsessive thoughts about code bugs, nice to have features, what’s next, running out of money, fear of failure, and family issues has kept me sleepless for about two months now. The irony is that I’ve been pumping out work at lighting speed for the last two months, but the lack of sleep has shown apparent in the quality of my work.

Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t a regret post. Just a vent post, and a possible request for some Ambien.

Update: Thank you to @aloisius on twitter for recommending http://www.themeditationpodcast.com/. Episode six proved to be very helpful for falling asleep.